Life and Exsistence.
are they heavy or light?
and
heavy things good? or light things are good?
I tend to deal with these things lightly.
yesterday, I met someone who tends to deal with these things heavily.
he looked so distressed.
what I had talked about was much more like joke to him.
but actually I have lived all the time considering that joke seriously.
and that doesn't stress me.
it is like a thought without solution and
just thinking deeply about that is meaningful to me.
however nobody expects a solution when they talk about worries.
so my worries like jokes are qutie good because they are light.
life is only once.
so i said,
life only once, and never repeated so
it never can be practiced and
we don't need to think about revenge or something to get back.
it just flows and goes away and
the memory of life is so light like a feather
the only-one happened life is like a nothing.
but his saying was quite interesting because he said
"i think a life is so heavy because it happens only once for us.
that's why we have to struggle to live for not regretting our life in the future"
"not to regret. so we have to live with responsiblity"
if that responsiblity and unregrettable life are for ourselves then I can agree.
but what are that for?
maybe we are getting out of our life when that jugdegement are sentenced.
I feel sad because
that unmarried man worried about his life-realted to raising childeren,
morgage to buy big house..
he eagerly longed for stablitiy in his life.
he was beliving that the stablity will come to him after marry, born a child
and get a house.
moreover he told me that he would be happy with his future wife and babies's happiness
even he sacrifices all.
he looked so heavy
and his life looked so hheavy.
and i feel heavy like heavy stone is on my stomache.
i'm sure the moment he feels stable would never happen in his life.
life, that is originally unstable.
i told him
'hey think lightly. why are u worry about something not haappen yet?'
but it doesn't help at all.
sometimes, I cant talk with my age
because I'm so light.
